she's an internet girl!

(August 3, 2024)

 song that prompted me to write in my blog <3: sun and moon mage tears, found literally a few minutes ago through a tiktok slideshow 

things in right now: 

  • watching 2000s movies for the vibes & outfits, lindsay lohan, ah guess ill always return... (past: tiktok edit of lindsay lohan who's apparently a danger to all security guards, 90210, one tree hill, victoria secret shows and angels, the oc, jersey shore, that time when i was studying for exams and was cooped up dirty by my desk only taking breaks to lay on my bed/floor and watch hair routines and lawyers' day in the lives & law students and seeing if that's what i wanted for myself 💙)(watching deep dives on lindsay lohan and paris hilton and the bling ring... feeling fomo bc i haven't watches the housewives) 
  • having a deep cry yesterday, listening to all my old depressing songs (rlly good, ill put u on), feeling so comfortable bc u no longer have to push against (resistance) and ignore and suppress and pretend that ur doing well, and equipping the ego so you're protected™ and never struggled and are just like everybody else and want to have Those vibes. The vibes that you're either hunting or being hunted, exluded or excluding, beef, and spreading rumours and survival instincts, running off of ego and fear and toxicity... im tired of this communal expectation that i be like that, sometimes hanging in the air in some circles, sometimes imagined/remembered simultaneously self-imposed, the question, expectation posed a question to oneself but then self-rejected, lol 
  • The post-cry glow, the sensual, smokey eyes, lips a bit puffy, yup... 
  • butterfly everything--not in the depressed way--but sade-adjacent vibes, butterfly navel piercing, butterfly nose piercing, butterfly tattoos, colourful, bangles, accessories, big earrings, blowout, and a big smile <3, butterfly nails...—butterfly tooth gems…
  • when meeting bad situations having the default thoughts pop up be healthy ones, relying on a base that is well-built, self-assured, healthy, optimistic, and manifest-y, 'delusional', a deep knowing--even if it doesn't feel like that, a subtle deep knowing... 
  • comfortable and embodying your features 
  • remembering my og blog days (me at 12yo - the og it girl, games 4 girlz dot com... my little family newsletter, detective games, being too scared to use the webcam on there so meeting a girl with a black screen but then turning on the webcam and shaking a doll and on the other side there was some faceless 40yo pedo stroking his hair and something below......! then he typed in "wtf" in the chat--YOU are saying that to ME???) - not that, just a funny occurrence 
  • wearing heels everywhere
  • carrie bradshaw, the 2000s are back including SKINNY JEANS yes i said it! minus the eating disorder toxicity 
  • balenciaga city bags (etc) gaskinz.com (1, 2, 3)
  • nails



If no one sees those photos and videos of you looking good, do they even matter? - feminism (women fully internalizing her self as object to be observed, monitored and observed/consumed by others, recognizing our societal position as status indicator and that our value has been collectively agreed on--or upheld to varying extents in various ways--to be in our appearance) 


What's Coming In the Mail 

  • Miss Me Jeans (pop wing skinny ver bc the bootcut was sold out and i wasn't gonna buy the 34" length...)--use a package forwarding service bc would have paid $100 in duties, taxes and shipping alone! Totaled out to be ~$80 in the end, so not AS bad... saw a tiktok that u can ask shipping company to drop the brokerage fee and u sign the paper yourself, but miss me includes the duties and taxes up-front so idk if ud be able to do that w miss me... 
  • Eternal Muse Heatless Curlers + hair mist + a comb that helps with not making the curls drop 
  • Supre riri tanks - w the long straps, but it's good bc im thinking pushup lace bra peeking underneath

... Katherine Pierce wore skinny jeans... 

what came in: 

  • Bo & Tee workout set (review: boob job top, got cat-called 3 times, saw 2-maybe 3 ppl from high school, it's enchanted-cursed-whatever) 
  • Ali Express ribbons :/ o.O 
  • sephora refills 
  • skims bras - cups fit but not the underbust :(, skims doesn't carry my size i don't think! 
k, much love xx 

Catherine 

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